Sunday, June 20, 2010

Why I Write

As a young girl I had a speech impediment; I wrote then, because I was afraid to speak. Today, I write for so many reasons:

I write because I am capable.

I write to clear my head of jumbled words that want to be created more quickly than they can be verbalized.

I write because it soothes my soul.

I write because I love.

I write because I hate.

I write for the trapped voices of fears that live inside me.

I write for pleasure and for pain.

I write for the fine line that divides my feelings into the previous categories.

I write because I feel alive, like the words are oxygen and precede my exhale.

I write because I am lonely sometimes, and words are like old friends having a cup of coffee and a private conversation.

I write because I feel maniacal.

I write to subdue my fears.

I write because I imagine.

I write because I want to remember all of the little things in life that make a difference to me.

I write because the words pulsate inside my head, and are begging to come out.

I write to clear the slate.

I write to document observations, because it then becomes history.

I write because in my soul are a million fireflies and when I write, the paper is the jar to contain them; yet still allow their light to glow.

I write because I have something to say; yet sometimes I say nothing that anyone would understand.

I write because it makes me feel whole.

I write to exercise my freedom to do so.

I write mainly because it feeds my passion for expressing my deepest thoughts, often the ones I cannot say out loud.

I write because I can.